21 years of life experiences.
Singapore Polytechnic
Diploma in Chemical Engineering
God who create me
The people who produced me.
The smile and laughter within me
That makes who i am.
Fiza
I swear that i'll never give up
Only God knows what i want in life.
Till then Be my friend. :)
ipod
University
DSLR Camera
nas. nisa. mya. ayun. nizal. cMa. alfian. syahida. citee. erny. izzah. rafie. eileen. yana. dewi. adi. yat. wan. idiot. huan. hainita. ann. liyana. izfa. dewimalam.
Let bygones be bygones.
I used to hav very low self-esteem. I used to regret being me.
UGLY is the word that define me.
I've always thought myself as an ugly person.
During primary school, I don't really have many friends.
"Friends" tend to turn their back on me.
They called me names.
One reason behind this: MY HAIR.
My hair was the main reason people called me names.
Negative comments were spit on me. They say i look WEIRD.
I look ugly in it. Sometimes i was the laughing stock among friends.
Sometimes, i got people staring at me.
Even my Bestfriend, turn me down. She left me with others.
I used to be upset. I hate myself. I hate having my hair.
Hate the way i look.
I used to cry alone.
Even though, at that time. There were true friends around me.
They give me hopes and support.
However, it was only for a short while.
After going into another step of life which is the going to secondary school,
we went separate ways.
Once i entered secondary school, i met more new people.
It was the first day of school that i realised,
i've met my TRUE LOVING BESTFRIEND.
From that on, i really happy having friends around.
Friends whom i could hold on to.
Friends whom i could share my problems.
Friends who really give me their full support and encouragements.
My self-esteem grew.
Even though at times, i still think that i hate my hairs.
And there's time where people still did call me names.
But with the support and encouragement of
my Bestfriend and the rest of my good friends,
i gain my confidence.
I started to believe in myself.
Things were going on fine until i met my first "real boyfriend".
I was quite happy atleast there were people who actually
appreciate me for who i am. However, again my self-esteem went
down to the ground when he played me out on another gal.
She was much more attractive than me.
AGAIN, Again N again, i tot i was ugly.
AGAIN, i blame my hair. I CRIED till i sleep.
Almost every nite i cried thinking bout myself being weird with my ugly hair
that people actually hate me.
Eventually, there were friends who actually give me hopes.
They provide me with optismistic remarks.
One day i came to school with a new haircut.
I started to like my hair.
I started to find other ways to enhance the beauty of my hair.
Everyday i pray to God asked Him for forgivenes
as i was not being contented with what i had.
I pray that i would love myself more.
I pray to hav Friends that will stick to me thru thick and thin.
MY PRAYERS was granted.
Allah give me the strength to move on with my life.
He give me the pleasure of being myself and happiness inside me.
He granted me one lovely Bestfriend that was with me for 5 years now
AND still going strong.
He make me realised the real meaning of Beauty.
He make me feel how special i am to be me.
THANK YOU ALLAH for everything. without u, i don't think i was this strong.
I'm nothing without u. But with U in my heart, i feel special unique and
I LOVE MYSELF more than i actually realised.
To all people whom You thought u are ugly and unaccepted by others,
just SMILE and SHOW UR TRUE COLOURS
cuz that makes You the most Beautiful person on earth.
don't care what people say about u.
don't ever be discourage when others critise you.
have some respect for yourself.
YOU WILL ALWAYS BE BEAUTIFUL AND SPECIAL.