21 years of life experiences.
Singapore Polytechnic
Diploma in Chemical Engineering
God who create me
The people who produced me.
The smile and laughter within me
That makes who i am.
Fiza
I swear that i'll never give up
Only God knows what i want in life.
Till then Be my friend. :)
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University
DSLR Camera
nas. nisa. mya. ayun. nizal. cMa. alfian. syahida. citee. erny. izzah. rafie. eileen. yana. dewi. adi. yat. wan. idiot. huan. hainita. ann. liyana. izfa. dewimalam.
Let bygones be bygones.
Understand that I need to
Wish that I had other choices
Than to hurt the one I love
What have you done now?
I know I'd better stop trying
You know that there's no denying
I won't show mercy on you now
I know I should stop believing
I know that there's no retrieving
It's over now
What have you done?
What have you done now?
I need time to heal myself.
I know i've hurt some people.
But u need to understand that i've hurt myself too while in the process.
Mayb u didnt see it at first cause u were only
thinking of ur own heart wreaking.
Did u ever realised how it hurt me when u said all that?
It hurt me too seeing some people crying because of me.
The confusion u brought to me affected me greatly.
I hate u for doing what u did but i don't hate you.
I never realised such things happening to me NOW.
I'm sorry.
U are still someone i consider close.
I've made a promise to u.
So i'll make sure it stays as long as i can.
I'm moving on. Moving on towards something i called happiness.
I dun wanna repeat my past mistake.
I just wanna be myself and follow what my heart told me to.
Its hard for me to swallow all this shits happening to me.
You should have told me earlier about it.
You shouldnt be a coward.
I understand that u was unsure but who cares u could atleast tell me what's inside you.
All this while i've been asking you, but all you did was hiding it from me.
I can't read ur mind. I'm a human. I only forsee what's outside.
You should understand that. The consequences u took has lead to this.
You can't blame him for the betrayal cause i've the right to know.
He has feelings too. He won't want to hurt you. Mayb yes he was wrong for not telling you what he felt. But i know there's a reason to it. Y can't u understand the fact.
Like u said no one could understand you cause people wasnt in ur shoes.
Then hav u ever thought that what if u were in his shoes?
what if u were in my shoes? What would u feel? Do u know tat?
I'm not siding anyone just so you know.
U told me that i shouldn't keep things to myself, i've to let it out.
But did u let it out?
What u did was keeping all ur shits to urself.
U thought what u did was right?
I couldn't believe someone i've respect so much for high maturity do such things to me.
All this while, i've been praying to God.
I would never want to repeat past mistakes.
But it came back. Mayb God is testing me during this holy month.
But unexpectedly the person is YOU.
I need u to help me cause all this while u are the one who stay by my side when i need someone, when there's no one to turn to. But now u are in the picture. It's different.
I cried alone hurting. I've been thinking it was my fault knowing u people.
But i realised i've never regret cause u people always make my day.
We are like brothers even though i knew it was only a few months.
I'm sorry for saying all this shits.
I think i have to for u to realised how much i care for our friendship.
I wouldnt want things between everybody to be different
cause i just love the way we are before all this shits happened.
I wish i could turned back time.
I did say i forgive you n i think its for real.
But i need time to heal all the pain.
I need time to see the correct path that leads to my happiness.
Seriously i hope this time is real.
I've been holding back this for too long.
Like i said i just want a happy ending.
I just need someone who will be there for me through thick and thin.
I hope i'm right this time.